Heey there!
I'm not entirely sure what I'm suppose to right about, but the other day a friend told me to start a blog, so I did.
I'm sixteen and live in Spain.
I was born in England and consider myself British.
And american.
I'm not sure if I like living here though. The place is great, I mean, the sun, the trees, and tan guys walking around. But the thing is Spanish people are really just too afraid.
What I mean is, I've lived in America you see, and the people there are GREAT. Like I'm serious. It might of been where i lived but the americans were AMAZING. They are just so nice. The best thing about them though is how they accept everyone for who they are. What I mean is that they don't prejudge people. I'm not saying that Americans are friends with anyone and everyone, but they get along with anyone who they know. There's no such thing as not liking someone without even knowing them or criticizing someone for know reason. The people who didn't have many friends was generally for the reason that they weren't very nice. I know this completely goes against the rest of the worlds view on Americans social way of living, and i'm deffinetly NOT saying that the whole of america is like this, just where I lived, which was great.
So going there for only a year was great. I have no regrets.
The thing is, when you live with americans, you want to be like them, cause they're so nice a cheerful people. So you begin to act like them and have their view on the world which is great: So open minded. ( Hence me saying before that I felt american).
But the thing is that people here aren't as nice and open minded.
Well actually that's NOT true, I take it back
SOME people here aren't as nice. There's many cool people, just where I go to school, not so much.
So yeah,,
People at my school ALL want to be the same. I'm not kidding. Like literally. They all want to dress the same, speak the same, go out with the same people... It's a bit odd.
Maybe it's really not odd at all, maybe its normal for people to want to be the same. Like I know that us as humans always want to belong somewhere and be part of a group and stuff, but... to want to be the same?
I don't know. In my opinion everyone lives their own life. You have a right to be unique, everyone is different, so why try to be the same? Somehow, I feel that people who want to be the same are kind of wasting their life. I know this sounds SUPER mean, and I don't intend AT ALL to hurt or offend anyone in any way AT ALL. I'm sorry if I have. That is if anyone is actually reading this...
Anyways so the people in my school don't like to be different, which you know, is their choice. But what makes my struggle is that they don't like anyone who is different. So if you do something, anything that's not "normal" you are bound to be made fun of or something. Which i feel has kind of restricted me as a person. In class I don't voice my opinions, or wear what I would want to. I don't want you to think that I'm a super exentric person. I'm not even all that different to the people at my school, it's more like I've never wanted to be the same, so they assumed that I'm very different.
I know I really shouldn't be complaining about my social life, in or out of school. At school I do have a nice group of friends which i love. I'm able to hang out with a bunch of different people. I'm not deprived of company. But we, my friends and I, are just only us. I know this all sounds really egocentric and ungrateful, which maybe I am, but when your just a fraction of a group and when the rest of it gets along perfectly well and puts you down because of a person they think you are it really hurts.
Having said that though, I still believe that the best thing anyone can be is their self. You exist because of a reason. You are you and don't let anyone change that.
The society in which we live in has to put labels. It is what it is.
So yeahh, that's me for todaay, i'm not sure if I'm going to contiue this blog thing,, I'll see
Thankyouu!
Juliaa Xxx
